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Rabu, 15 April 2020

My Man -One day-

I've met someone who change me to a better person in a very short time. He shows the effort that I never ask. Trying hard to understand me, care 'bout me and love me for me.
I've doubt 'bout all this things. Afraid that I'll hurt again. Taking sometimes to accept him in my life. But deep inside, for the first time in forever I picture my future where he is there, together with me living this life beautifully.
Hopefully.. one day I'll address him as my MAN..

1. A MAN takes responsibility for his actions, a BOY makes excuses for his actions.
2. A MAN lifts you up with you’re feeling down, a BOY kicks you while you’re down.
3. A MAN tells you he loves you and backs it up with his actions, A BOY tells you he loves you
4. A MAN makes you want to be a better person because you have so much genuine respect for him, A BOY makes you feel like you’re not good enough.
5. A MAN is not threatened by your success, but proud of it, and inspired by it, A BOY makes you feel like you need to downplay your accomplishments so as not to embarrass him.
6. A MAN expresses his true feelings and shows his emotions, a BOY hides his feelings and tries to be “tough”
7.  A MAN is protective, A BOY is possessive.
8. A MAN always tells the truth, a BOY lies, cheats, and deceives.
9. A BOY plays games, a MAN doesn’t have that kind of time.
10. A MAN sticks to his word, a BOY breaks promises.
11.  A MAN is not afraid to challenge you, because he knows what you’re capable of, A BOY underestimates you.
12. A MAN has respect, a BOY doesn’t really understand the true meanings of that word.
13. A MAN has a vision and sets goals, a BOY can’t see past tomorrow.
14. A MAN explains himself if he has a change of a heart, a BOY just walks away.
15. A BOY speaks, a MAN acts.
16. A MAN sees what he wants and earns it, a BOY sees what he wants and tries to take it.
17. A MAN does what needs to be done, a BOY does what he wants to be done.
18. A BOY plays house, a MAN makes a home.
19. A MAN is confident in himself, a BOY is cocky.
20.  A MAN will be interested in your life because he cares about you and wants to understand you more deeply as a person, A BOY will be interested in your life for as long as he can get something out of it.
21. A MAN knows that a relationship means the two of you are providing equally for each other,  BOY thinks he must provide for you. 
22. A MAN appreciates your physical beauty, but is most attracted to your personality, A BOY is only interested in beauty. 
23. A MAN always makes time for you, while also making sure he has a life outside your relationship, A BOY is either needy or impossible to get hold of. 
24. A MAN understands the concept of being rational and having priorities, A BOY makes rash decisions based on his immediate desires. 
25. A MAN needs you because he believes his life is better with you in it,  BOY needs you because of his fragile self-esteem.

Khamis, 2 April 2020

Tidak Terdetik Walau Sekali

Sebenarnya...
Tidak terdetik walau sekali
Tidak terlintas walau dihati
bertemu dia temani hari
disaat aku mencari diri

Dia hadir tanpa diduga
memikat hati meneguh jiwa
di kala dia mengungkap kata
menukar aku menjadi kita

Ahad, 8 Julai 2018

Put Back The Pieces

Four and half years has passed. looking through this blog is like walking down the memory lane. Lots of things that happened back then make me being me. I've lost for years. Stop doing what I love doing. I don't know why, but it's just happened. So, I think I should start writing back. I want to do this for me. Just for myself.


Ahad, 18 Mei 2014

When you only had a choice.....



 Almost 5 years knowing each other..... try harder to be the best I could.... but just realize that's not enough.... Just because one unexpected question, she saw the demon in me....

There's no tears... not anymore.... I'll face this with all my heart.... If that what she can conclude about me... After what I have done to her... then I'll accept... everything...

"People get tired".... that's right.... I think it enough... you've got enough from me... now just lean by our own...

You're matured enough to be on your way.... to dump your friend just for a man... then, go ahead.... I'll not saying a word...

because I know my silence is better for you....



heart broken...

Rabu, 24 April 2013

The mature 'love'..



pagi yang hening...
di temani hujan renyai
manja menyirami tubuh bumi
menjadikan bayu dingin membelai 
tubuh-tubuh insan..
menjadikan hati berat 
meninggalkan pembaringan..

Aku tenang memandu pagi itu
kesejukan penghawa dingin kereta
mencengkam hingga ke tulang..
perlahan aku meneruskan perjalanan
dalam kelam dan renyai yang 
membataskan pandangan..

entah mengapa kata-kata itu 
terngiang-ngiang difikiran

'Immature love' is
when someone said
"I love you because I need you"
while
'Mature love' is 
when some one said
"I need you because I love you"

apa pun pandangan dan tafsiran 
orang tentang cinta
aku tetap dengan prinsip ku sendiri

Bagiku
"Cinta itu adalah satu perasaan kasih dimana kita inginkan yang terbaik buat insan yang kita cintai. Keinginan untuk melihat mereka bahagia.
Dan mencintai tidak bererti memiliki atau menguasai."

Keadaan yang tenang 
sentiasa membuka ruang untuk kita berfikir
dan memuhasabah diri...


Rabu, 17 April 2013

Can't stop thinking of that Lad...

is it hard huh! 
to stop thinking 'bout someone
that always stuck in your mind..

I've had try hard enough 
to not to think 'bout him
and it changes nothing..
at all

No!  i don't think this is LOve
it just some kind of 'virus'
which attack my brain system
and playing around in my mind...
can it be like that?

Honestly
I just need peace
plz...
go away from me...
stop haunting my life
I just want to stop thinking 'bout that lad...
that's all



Sabtu, 13 April 2013

Hall Of Fame


It's such a lie if I said that I never feel down....

Everybody will face it once in life times.. at least...

Just flashing back my times... The time when I feeling down.. very down because of feeling alone and stress... hehe.. I'm not a person who looking for friend... I just someone that can be a friend...

Because of I'll sit for the final examination.. so, I've to do something that can motivate me... and the thing that I did is talk to may friend who is very nice to me.... and she gave me this.......



Yeah, you can be the greatest
You can be the best
You can be the King Kong banging on your chest

You could beat the world
You could beat the war
You could talk to God, go banging on his door

You can throw your hands up
You can beat the clock (yeah)
You can move a mountain
You can break rocks
You can be a master
Don't wait for luck
Dedicate yourself and you gon' find yourself

Standing in the hall of fame (yeah)
And the world's gonna know your name (yeah)
'Cause you burn with the brightest flame (yeah)
And the world's gonna know your name (yeah)
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame

You can go the distance
You can run the mile
You can walk straight through hell with a smile

You could be the hero
You could get the gold
Breaking all the records they thought never could be broke

Yeah, do it for your people
Do it for your pride
How you ever gonna know if you never even try?

Do it for your country
Do it for your name
'Cause there's gonna be a day...

When you're standing in the hall of fame (yeah)
And the world's gonna know your name (yeah)
'Cause you burn with the brightest flame (yeah)
And the world's gonna know your name (yeah)
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame

Be a champion, be a champion, be a champion, be a champion
On the walls of the hall of fame

Be students
Be teachers
Be politicians
Be preachers
(Yeah)

Be believers
Be leaders
Be astronauts
Be champions
Be truth seekers

Be students
Be teachers
Be politicians
Be preachers

Be believers
Be leaders
Be astronauts
Be champions

Standing in the hall of fame (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And the world's gonna know your name (yeah, yeah, yeah)
'Cause you burn with the brightest flame (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And the world's gonna know your name (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame

(You can be a champion)
You could be the greatest
(You can be a champion)
You can be the best
(You can be a champion)
You can be the King Kong banging on your chest

(You can be a champion)
You could beat the world
(You can be a champion)
You could beat the war
(You can be a champion)
You could talk to God, go banging on his door

(You can be a champion)
You can throw your hands up
(You can be a champion)
You can beat the clock
(You can be a champion)
You can move a mountain
(You can be a champion)
You can break rocks

(You can be a champion)
You can be a master
(You can be a champion)
Don't wait for luck
(You can be a champion)
Dedicate yourself and you gonna find yourself
(You can be a champion)

Standing in the hall of fame


So... Thanks to her, b'coz i did continue my study after listened to this song.. n performed well in my paper... huhuhu...


p/s: love u... n gonna miss u... Siti Syazwani...

Sabtu, 23 Mac 2013

WithOut WorDs.....


Should've ignored what I felt
What I felt deep in my heart
'coz now I don't even know how to start letting you go...

It hurt so bad, I can't explain

I should've just ran away
Beside you I just can't stay 'coz I know that we won't be more than friends
It's clear to see
'coz in your heart is where she'll be

Without words, you have shown me what love is
Without words, your name is what my heart screams

It breaks me just to know that you really love her
So, I'll try my best that it won't show.

Without words you have made me feel so much pain
Without words feels like I have drowned in the rain..

And I was such a fool to believe that there was really you and me
Without saying a word

I'll pretend that I don't hear my heart
Whenever you're near
And though it doesn't subside whenever our worlds collide

I know someday I'll learn to let you go

Without a word
I really don't know why
To you, I'd never learn to say goodbye....






Ahad, 17 Mac 2013

Untuk MaMa ku!..

Pernahkahku hargai
Cintamu yang sejati
Pernahkah ku cuba mengerti
Akan dirimu...

Betapa hebatnya cintamu
Membuatku bahagia
Betapa agungnya kasihmu
Memberikan seribu makna

Di sisimu
Aku tenang seluruh jiwa
Di hatiku merindukan dirimu
Entah mengapa sukar
Untuk aku meluahkan
Ku sayang padamu

Sungguh ampuh dirimu
Mendidik dan mengasuh kami
Telus akan amanahmu
Tanpa mengenal erti lelah

Akan ku hargai
Segala pengorbananmu ini
Akan ku balas jasamu
Selagi ku mampu

Kan kucoretkan
Kenangan bersamamu
Dalam sanubariku ini
Kerna kau yang terindah
Di dalam hidupku ini









KAKAK SAYANG MAMA!

Isnin, 4 Februari 2013

Am I ready?




Such a silly things when I already prepared to be apart from you....
 When the time comes, I know that we'll not be together like now... so, to make it less hurt... I told myself that you're nobody and just someone who I used to complete my 'task'...

But.. deep inside me.. I know that you are special. I'll always remembering you as someone who always know how to make me feel better...

Such an idiot who pretended not loving someone she love.

no matter what'll happend.. you're my friend... you'll always be..

Ahad, 3 Februari 2013

My own Heart....

Wondering with my own heart...

Honestly.. I hate when I'm start liking someone...


Hard to say..  I know that he's not belong to me.... yet.. hehehe

But.. Nevermind...:

Look at you
Look at me
Look at who
We could be

I wanna know
Who you are
What you want
From the start

And every time I look at you I can hardly say a thing
My head starts to spin
And it hits me then
I love you

And every time you look at me I could go crazy but I
don't say it but I won't
Cause I'd rather be alone
Than lose you

And all I really wanna do is be next to you
But I'm too tired to fight
And I could tell you now
But baby never mind

All the time
Everyday
There's nothing I can do baby
To make you go away

All I really wanna say is I need you, babe
But how could you understand
What happens if you turn away
And everything turns blue and gray
And I just wish I told you never mind

And I could tell you now
But baby never mind




# It's hurt badly when you fall to someone who want you just as a friend.. No matter what.. he always know how to make me feel better...

Jumaat, 12 Oktober 2012



they said.. "trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.."

yeah! it's hard... and sometimes it's hurts..

i kept asking myself.. why i met you?
why? why should i?


I have wrote this about 8 years ago. and never publish since then. now when I go through this words. Its make me realize that, everything that happened to you, everything that make your life difficult, it happens for a reason. you may take it as a lesson or experience or things that make you stronger.
And now, I'm become someone who is stronger than before and met someone who value me, love me, and care about me.
Its definitely make me appreciate more in my life. And I'm now a happy person.

10/4/2020

Isnin, 1 Oktober 2012

B!L@ F!N@L 3X@m Menjelang T!B@....


Hari nie 1st day of final exam for this semester.. so, early in the morning, the 1st thing that i did right after wake up from my bed is.... calling my beloved m0m.... told her that i got to sit  for my 1st final paper today...

lots.. lots.. of advices that she keep reminded me.... but I love to hear all that things... she remind me not to forget to do my Dhuha prayer every day in the morning... make dua'.... recite the Al-Quran... and etc...

I know all that things.. but I love to hear it from my mom.. again and again.... calling her just to hear something that she always tell me since I was young... sweet kan... 

i realize that.. we'll never feel bored to hear something typical again and again from someone who is important to us and who we can't live without him/her. that's because we're love them badly....


Rabu, 12 September 2012

When I'm Think!ng of You..

When you were here..
You have told me something that I can't bare it..

You've said...
"There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept,
things we don't want to know but have to learn...
and people we can't live without but have to let go.."

Honestly...
I do not take it serious a long times ago...
but now...
I know that I need to accept what was happen...
I have to learn something that I never expect...
and... badly... I have to let you go....
no matter what..

I deadly miss you....


Sabtu, 14 Julai 2012

Be In Time....




Semua orang berhak untuk berubah kearah kebaikan.... terlalu banyak keadaan dan situasi yang mampu mengubah diri seseorang dari pelbagai sudut...


Jumaat, 29 Jun 2012

Bila Hati Pinta DiPujuk...

Kata org andai rindu terasa... dibaca semula surat cinta lama... usaha mengubat hati yg lara..
 kata org.. kata cinta menyenangkan jiwa... kasih sayang mencipta bahagia...

Tatkala hati gundah gulana.. diri mula mencari Dia... Dibaca semula surat cintaNya...

-MELAPANGKAN- 94 [AL-INSYIRAH]

  • Bukankah kami telah melapangkan untukmu dadamu?
  • Dan kami telah meninggalkan daripadamu bebanmu,
  • Yang memberatkan punggungmu.
  • Dan kami tinggikan bagimu sebutan (nama) mu.
  • Kerana sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan,
  • Sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan
  • Maka apabila kamu telah seselai (sesuatu urusan), kerjakanlah dengan bersungguh-sungguh (urusan) yang lain.
  • Dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah hendaknya kamu berharap.
 Sweetkan........ sangat menenangkan... terubat rasa di jiwa.. memutik tenang di hati.....




Selasa, 19 Jun 2012

VERSUS

"Sebab.. apabila fikir balik, kan... Berapa ramai orang... yang tiap-tiap hari buat je solat tu, baca je ayat-ayat dalam solat tu, tapi tak bawa kesan tak bawa makna apa-apa pun kat dia orang." Minn memandang Jasmin. "Tak ke?" [-Versus-Hlovate-]

Terfikir sejenak.. akukah itu? "Just like me"
Dimana aku sebenarnya... betullah..."Hidup di dunia nie sprt p'jalanan yg t'lalu panjang dn t'lalu byk perhentian sementara, sehingga kadang2 terlupa sebenarnya diri ini nk ke mana." -Hlovate-


maybe it's better for me to make a U-turn... right?

[Kenapa beli buku tue (Versus)... Not only because it is a novel... not only because i love reading... but the sentence.. "Bacalah jika anda juga ingin berubah menjadi lebih baik, insya'Allah!]

Ahad, 10 Jun 2012

She make ME think...

When I'm on my way back to Arau... She had say something that stuck in my head.. (it just there.. 'till now..)

"Right person will come at the right time in the right way.." -She-

honestly.. speechless... *____*